There is a certain idea of what studying abroad is and can be. We expect it to be this constant action and experience. We forget that we are the same people at home as we are in a different country. We tire the same, we get overwhelmed the same, we need breaks the same.
Having been in Rome for two months, I have not seen even half of the things I planned to see. That brings a feeling of inadequacy. I feel like I haven’t done anything, like I haven’t been taking advantage of the place I am in. That could not be further from the truth! I do as much as I am physically able every day, and I go to all of the activities planned for us to see the city and experience cultural events. There is no reason for me to feel guilty because I haven’t had time to visit the entirety of the museums and galleries in Rome.
I need to remind myself that it’s okay to take a nap after class if I’m exhausted. It’s okay to skip out on a museum because I have a tight budget. It’s okay to go to the same place one day because I like it. Often, people assume that we must be always doing something interesting to fully experience the place we study abroad, but we have to live normally and take breaks too!
This week is fall break for me, and my plans were to cram as much exploring as possible. However, after a weekend of traveling, and missed train connections, I would much rather rest. Today, after finishing this blog, I am going to sit in my room and watch the newest season of Peaky Blinders, which I have not given myself the time to watch. Then I will have lunch, read at the orange garden, and maybe explore a little before dinner. The MAXXI museum will be there for me tomorrow, I don’t need to rush.
I have decided to spend the rest my time in Rome genuinely and unapologetically. This is my Roman way. And for anyone back home, don’t forget to take a breather too.