In my last post, I mentioned going to Prague and also Cannstatter Volksfest. Prague was beautiful, and I would love to visit again when I get the chance. I fell in love with the city. The Volksfest was also quite the experience, though I enjoyed the carnival rides and game booths more than the tents filled with sloppy, intoxicated students. Dancing on the benches inside the tent was oddly satisfying, though. All in all, both were a really nice, much-needed break, from academic life.
Not to be a bummer again but I am really starting to feel the weight of being far from home. Don’t get me wrong this experience great but this being the hardest school has been in years, and I miss home. Also, I miss my dog a lot. It is really starting to take its toll on my mental stability as well. I have a history of not having the most stable mental health in the world, especially under stress, so it’s been interesting to try and handle things completely alone. After ugly crying for hours the other day in my apartment, I realized I have to start getting it together and fast because I didn’t travel this far not to be okay for most of it. It’s only been a few days since that incident, but I am already starting to notice subtle, positive, changes from altering my lifestyle a bit. I’ve started meditating, practicing yoga, and creating a much more structured way of going about my day. Hopefully, in the coming weeks, I can sit back and reassess everything and decide if I can/want to continue this dual-degree program. It’s been a lot of planning and unlearning not-so-great habits so far, but it’s helping. German chocolate is also helping too because who doesn’t eat their feelings every once in a while? The journey to a more mentally stable and happy me continues. Until next time~