It’s hard trying to figure out what to say now that I’m here. It honestly feels like the third week of September – I know enough to not get lost on the tube, but there’s not way I’ve been here for four months. Saying goodbye to the city is different than when I graduated high school and left for a new state. There’s a looming sense of finality as my last few days wind to a close. Though it’s unlikely I’ll never be back, I’m sure it will be some time before I return. I’ve made some friends during the program that I know I will never see again, even back home. Despite this, I find myself really wishing to go home. I’m tired and miss my bed and privacy.
I almost cried leaving my internship. I have a hard time putting what it meant to me in words. Over and over I hear that music is a hard industry to get into and that I might not make it. While i know live music is my dream and I cannot imagine doing anything else, it’s discouraging to hear. Even in the short time I spent at Everybody’s, my confidence grew tenfold. Seeing my coworkers and learning how they got to their current position told me that I was in the right place. I know what I want and am figuring out how to get it – and that’s okay! I have an unrelated major – it’s okay! It’s ally okay because honestly, no one cares as long as you get your job done well.
I’m glad I get to stay in the country for a few more days to say goodbye and find a sense of peace with leaving it.